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Sunday, May 30, 2004

Tomorrow's my mother's birthday.. hehez.. and I've changed the delivery of the flowers to the night.. Hope that she is at home at that point of time U see.. Tomorrow Darling's day off! Yea! Might be going to Expo and look at the food fair..then after that going to buy a birthday cake for my mother. Hope to give her a lil surprise surprise... hehehz.. gotta play gunbound le.. Bye Bye!

if i ain't got you|5:44 PM|

Bored...bored...bored.... =(

if i ain't got you|11:57 AM|

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Duh... My mother eventually asked me about my results.. and then I told her.. she said nothing.. She asked about Darling's results and I told her.. she said "Very Good".. I was like :/ Why say him good and never say I good or wad? "Bias" hUmph~

Well.. I was like "phew".. coz my mother always think that "dating" at such a young age will affect our studies.. so I wanna prove her wrong U see.. Yep.. as long have good time management.. I think it should be okie bahz.. haha.. dunoe wad to do today arhz.. anyway.. slack around.. might be a good thing.

if i ain't got you|11:47 AM|

Got my results.. it was.. erm.. kinda unexpected.. Luckily there's no "C" for me.. happy enough le.. and I was so much more happy for Darling than for myself. He improved! Yay! Those afternoons really paid off! Right Darling? =muAckz= *Thumbs up for Ya! Well.. now I can really play for the next one mth.. without any worries anymore.. Hehez.. Darling's working later.. Hmm.. going to miss him though.. Wonder wad will I do the whole afternoon.. I've finished the book.. Hmm.. dunnoe lahz.. se ehow first.. Lolz.

if i ain't got you|1:22 AM|

Friday, May 28, 2004

Wad a relieve.. Darling told me that he don't have to work on Mondays.. Yays! Have to be satisfied U see.. I expected worst. Anyway.. didn't do anything much yesterday except watching the movie "The Day After Tomorrow". It's a very good movie.. nice effects and the story.. was definitely heart-breaking.. Almost cried in a few scenes.. wondered wad will happen if this really happen to the world.. Although Singapore will not be affected.. but then the northern side .. I think more than half the population will be swapped out.. Anyway.. it's a nice movie.. rememebr to catch it!

Then Darling had overnight mahjong over at Yao Cong's house and me.. wasn't feeling so well.. so I turned in about 10.30pm.. Early arhz? I also dunnoe why I was so tired.. and I woke up only about 12 this afternoon? Is like more than 12 hours? Darling starting work tomorrow.. well take care Dear~ I might be joining him for dinner tomorrow.. if he wants. Yep.. I've juz borrowed another book yesterday--> MIdnight Flight. It's nice and I think I am going to finish it soon. Well, now I fear abut my results.. I think it's gonna be released soon. *prays

if i ain't got you|5:30 PM|

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Well.. I dunoe wad to say.. juz that I am hurt.. maybe? Or issit my mood swing? Or I read too much? I dunoe.. but it definitely hurts.

*updated
Darling: When is day after tomorrow? Today or Tomorrow?
Me: Huh? Day after tomorrow not Saturday meh?
Darling: Huh? Is 27th or 28th May?
Me: 30th of May lahz...
Darling: Day After Tomorrow le.. The movie leh..
Me: *laughs..

if i ain't got you|12:36 PM|

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Moi!

Heart of Crystal

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Darling's

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Heart of Gold

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Nothing much happened actually...Oh yah.. I went to East Coast yesterday.. hehe.. finally.. the last time I've been there was during V Day? Yep.. Finally saw Darling bowl.. hehe.. He'z good alright! Cool! Also... we ate the McDonald's there and sit by the beach and see the waves and stars.. Yep.. Pretty shocked that Darling asked me to go East Coast.. I guessed it becoz he was there at that time bahz.. Lolz.. Anyway.. thanks Darling.. I had a nice time. =)

if i ain't got you|11:38 PM|

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Late last night.. Kate messaged me and told me that she felt like breaking off with ehr bf.. I was kinda shocked.. coz the other time when I met her.. she was telling me that how fortunate she was and how good he has been treating her.. I felt happy for her then. Then now, she said that he don't care about her feelings and all he cares is his own happiness. I don't know the whole story.. but I told her to talk it thorugh with ehr bf.. it might be a misunderstanding.. Also smtimes.. you can't expect your partner to be always 100% attentive towards ur feelings.. no one can do that. Being together is not only about loving, caring and concern, it is also about accepting each other weaknesses. If you couldn't stand his/ her weakness, don't expect him or her to change for u. No point. Cause U have to love him/ her for who he/ she is. U might as well go and find the person who u really want and stop being with that person. Ha! Also.. love is not always = happiness. There will be times you will get hurt and smtimes this feeling juz comes and goes.. so "sadness" in relationships is common.. and so.. dun think that when u are sad.. it means that this relaionship is "gone case". Dun forget.. the other party might be as hurt as u are.. And here, I would like to point out that being sad todether is also part and parcel in relatinships, that is going through tough times together.

"Breaking up" --> this word.. is a disastrous.. some ppl might think that it's a period for cooling down.. But to me, once it happens in the relationship.. there will forever be a crack. And you will forever remember why U break up with that person and why that person broke of with u. Let's say u two went back togetehr.. things will not be the same.. well.. for those lucky ones.. relationship might get better.

Thinking back.. it's hard to find a good partner who suits all ur needs.. and now.. couples do easily break up. For my case, it's still too early to say.. but of coz.. I will still go through thick and thin with Darling for I love him so much.

if i ain't got you|11:13 AM|

Monday, May 24, 2004

What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty

if i ain't got you|8:14 PM|

I'm mad lo... yah lo.. how arhz? mad about wad? Mad about Darling lo.. wad else.. OoPz! Hahaz.. *blushes. Well.. later sianz le.. maybe going to Acorn.. then after that go home le.. today sianz le.. later have to pick the kids up from school.. give me a Labour Day!

if i ain't got you|12:21 PM|

I am tired...coz of the swimming.. played slides.. swam against the waves.. etc.. Lolz.. it was really fun~! Never enjoyed that much for quite some time.. slept a lil juz now... but still feeling tired.. hahaz.. I've realised smthing about myself.. not that I only realise it now.. juz that when I am feeling tired.. I feel pretty vexed about everything. Until now.. I still let my emotions control me.. this is bad.. haiz.. anyway.. tomorrow is Darling's and Kang Ren's Basic Theory Test! Wish U all the best U two! Then tomorrow going Acorn again.. stupid.. delay the deadline.. Maybe I'll juz quit. Juz like the rest. Ain't worth it.. Well.. another slacking holiday!

if i ain't got you|12:04 AM|

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Yay! Today marks the 99th day! Of wad? the 99th day when Darling and I got together! Hehez.. Well.. Darling gave me a surprise in the afternoon. He folded stars and placed a hand-made flower in a bottle.. then there's a winnie-the-pooh hankerchief.. sprayed with Polo Blue (nice smell) wrapped at the top cover of the bottle.. using a special ribbion to tie it.. Hehez.. how sweet! I knew he got this 99th day thingie going on.. but then I didn't know that he really did smthing for me! I was really touched! Thanks Darling! =muackz= U are the best!

Hehez.. today, Sim Lim, Yao Cong, Sean, Yuan Da, Emily and Darling came over my hse and play mahjong.. hehez.. play until quite late.. then Darling won $19! Heez.. then after taking the rest to YCK MRT, Darling suggested to go and eat prata.. and there we went--> Jalan Kayu! Ate cheese prata again! Darling's treat! Thanks again Darling!

Tomorrow there will be another outing.. going to Jurong swimming I think.. Lolz.. with the same grp of ppl or even more~ HAve to wake up early.. lol..

Anyway Darling, having ur love is one of the greatest gift in my life. I never ask for more. Love You.

if i ain't got you|11:36 PM|

My mother thinks that my Darling is not fat wor... she even thinks that he should eat more.. Hahaz.. U get the hint baby? In time to come.. I'm gonna feed u more and more... Anyway.. didn't go to Acorn today.. ahhaz.. coz none of us completed the survey. Anyway.. dun wanna tk about it arhz.. lol.. but then Darling and I brought my sista to J8 Ajisen Ramen. She likes it! Hehehz.. then after that took my sista home and went to Orchard.. First to PS--> Buy lotsa food back then go to Far East.. buy ice-cream.. craving for it for very long le! Then after about 6 plus.. go home.. on the way back.. mother asked me to buy birthday cake for my daddy... coz he will be leaving for another business trip tomorrow and won't be back in time for his birthday.. so celebrate for him today lo.. I think he haven't see the birthday cards we gave.. coz my mother secretly placed the cards into his brief case.. hehez.. anyway sang happy birthday to him juz now~ Yep.. Wanted to go Zoo tomorrow.. but U see the darn weather.. spoil my mood only. =(

if i ain't got you|12:25 AM|

Friday, May 21, 2004

=Kiss= Listening to this wonderful song.. Watched the MTV before.. very touching indeed~ I almost weep! Hahzzz.. Yesterday went to borrow a story book and too bad they only have one book which I want. I read some of it yesterday in the night and it somehow freaked me out. Coz the book is toking about spirits.. Well.. not that I like reading these kind of books.. juz that it happen to be talking about the spirits otherwise normally the author would normally write about tragic stories about some familes.. Yep. Hey ppl out there.. asking you... is TROY nice? Hmm.. I've recevied both good and bad comments about it. Anyway, I wanna watch lotsa movies I guess.. er.. let's say.. the Teenage Drama Queen? The Day After Tomorrow? Harry Potter? Hehez.. Yep.. Later going back to Acorn to submit my questionnaire.. But before that.. heeh Darling and I going to Ajisen to eat.. coz there's 40% discount.. Yay! I think I will go and polish my ring later on... Miss ya Darling.. now waiting for him to wake up.. hehhee.. Must start saving up.. Darling's birthday coming.. hehe.. although it's like about 3-4 mths away? Hehez..

if i ain't got you|10:42 AM|

Thursday, May 20, 2004

My long waited trip had arrived! Yep.. Yesterday Darling and I went to Sentosa.. juz to enjoy the sun at the beach.. Hehez.. nice nice.. Then after that went to Delifrance to have smthing to chew.. Then actually wanted to like walk around and stay until 7 plus to see the musical fountain.. but then the weatehr did not permit us to do so.. It's so HUMID! Sux alright.. Then we left there early.. Went straight HOME! Yep! Oh yah... I wanted to make a trip to the Merlion.. but then it was closed =( Sad Sad.. anyway both of us signed up for the Islander's Membership.. Hehehzz.. Yapz.. so next time go Sentosa.. call us wor..

Anyway after Both of us went to our house.. we bathe again and went to sleep.. damn tired.. then later woken up by my sister.. sianz.. then Darling wanted to eat.. So we went to Bishan one of the coffee shop.. hehe went to J8 NTUC again to buy some stuff.. Haiz.. tomorrow have to submit my questionnaires le.. still got one more yet to be done.. have to wait who is at home or free.. heheez..

Try this.. damn cute..

Mine

My name is Sexy Lady but you have bisexual thoughts often..
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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Darling

My name is You are a super sexy hunk who has an 11 inch penis... AROUND... think about it.
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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Benjamin

My name is You Are Gay, but cover it by acting like a playboy in front of the ladies.
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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Sharon

My name is Sexy Lady but you have bisexual thoughts often..
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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*Same as me sia... lol

Melissa

My name is Your face looks like bart simpsons arse..
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*So bad sia... but it's not TRUE!

Doreen

My name is Sexy Lady but you have bisexual thoughts often..
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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*Hehehz...

Wee Leng

My name is You like wearing ladies underwear.
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Chee Khiang

My name is You Are Gay, but cover it by acting like a playboy in front of the ladies.
Take WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS today!
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*Same as Ben wor...

if i ain't got you|12:20 PM|

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

From Shannen's blog

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | Those insects with hairy legs.. lol.. like spiders?
02 | Ghosts/ Spirits
03 | Gruesome stuff like beheading of head
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | Derrick a.k.a Darling
02 | Those bitches*
03 | Myself.. wahahaha
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | My Family
02 | Darling
03 | Friends
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | To hate
02 | Those bitches out there
03 | Those jerks/ bastards out there
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | Guys' thinking
02 | Life
03 | Exams (wad are the purpose of exams?)
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | Mahjong Tiles
02 | Lecture Notes
03 | Hot chocolate
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | Blogging
02 | Loving Darling
03 | Missing him Madly.. hehehe
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | Get married to the person I love most
02 | Have children with my husband then
03 | Die after all my wishes have granted.. whahahaha
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | Talk rubbish
02 | Drive with a license
03 | Eat alot?
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | Emotional
02 | Loves freedom
03 | Can be wild/ playful
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | Don't love Darling
02 | Stop stressing up myself
03 | Do hanky panky stuff behind Darling (He is juz too good!!! =))
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | I Believe in Love
02 | Everytime
03 | Anyone of US
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | William Hung!
02 | Jap songs
03 | Korean songs
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | Farker
02 | What the...
03 | Idiot
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOOD:
01 | Cheesy stuff
02 | Spicy Stuff
03 | Pasta!!! (Seafood especially)
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THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | Not to be so stressed about work
02 | Learn to love better
03 | Skydiving? Hehee
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | Water???
02 | Root Beer (my Fav!)
03 | Green Tea
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | Little Pony
02 | Saliormoon
03 | Power Rangers
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RANDOM QUESTIONS..
1. Spell your name backwards: latsyrc
2. How did you get your live jounal name? Krista - abit sounds like "Crystal". Whispers- Well, I dun usually tok about my life that much.. and this is the first time I am like telling it all.. so somehow whispered it lahz.. Lolz.
3. Are you homosexual? No! STRAIGHT!

if i ain't got you|6:39 PM|

Monday, May 17, 2004

Yay! I was called up by Acorn Marketing Resrarch Company (Hope I get the name correctly). Anyway, while I was picking up my sister from her school, some unfamiliar number happened to appear on my phone.. well.. with a glimpse of hope... I answered the phone.. and yep.. it was form the company.. asking me to go for training tomorrow.. from 10-5. Yep.. kinda long.. luckily a few of my friends were also selected.. like Sean, Wee Beng, Seet Wei and Darling.. hehezz yapz.. going with them then. Then after picking my sis up I went to saloon.. with Darling. He had his hair cut and I've trimmed my hair.. and plus treatment.. condition of my hair is so much betetr yea.. Anyway.. yesterday went for steamboat with Darling.. hahaz.. finally~! And now.. I'm having a bit of sore throat. =(

if i ain't got you|9:59 PM|

I am pretty exhausted these few days.. not knowing why.. anyway.. today is juz another day.. Haiz.. I guess I prefer ging back to school.. but without EXAMS.. yep.. at least everyday still got something to do eh.. My mother has been rushing me to go and look for a job.. haiz.. it's not as easy as it seems.. considering I have not much of experience. My mother even asked me to go and do burger king and stuff.. and I was like telling her.. I am not a cheap labourer.. If I am only sec 2/3.. maybe I will go and do lahz.. but now? Pls lo.. haiz.. dunoe wad to do later also..

if i ain't got you|12:11 PM|

pSsT* I Love U.

if i ain't got you|12:09 AM|

Saturday, May 15, 2004

Very exhausted.. Lolz.. well.. juz came back form the airport.. Why? Well.. sent Yan Rong and Jovin off.. yap.. going to miss them lots I guess... 5 weeks.. arghz... LONG!

Anyway.. would like to descibe the flow of events.. from yesterday... Hmmm.. wellI met Darling in the late afternooon.. and guess where we go? Sakae Sushi!! Hehez.. Darling treated me le.. happy happy.. Hehehz.. thanks Darling! Although we had "difficulty" in eating.. but then.. with U around.. everything will be fine!! =mUackz=
After that.. I met some of my other friends.. Yao Cong, Seet Wei, Sim Lim, Wee Beng, Benji and Ling Xuan.. one whole group go for interview wor.. hahaha.. damn funny.. we almost got stuck in the lift.. I think we exceeded the weight limit. Then after that, I went to the hospital to visit my grandma..

After that, I pick up the girls (Lindy, Yan Rong and Celeste) from YCK Mrt to my hse.. played overnight mahjong.. hahaz.. play until 7 am in the morning.. so that means I only slept at about 8 plus.. ahhaz.. woke up at about 12.. coz Darling called me and he told me that he was outside my hse.. I didn't believe it man.. but he actually was outside my hse.. wad a surprise.. ahahaz.. yep.. then after that about 5 plus head to airport le lor.. Yep.. that's about all bahz.. Tomorrow meetning Darling again.. hehez.. finally.. QUALITY TIME TOGETHER!

if i ain't got you|11:45 PM|

Sadness.. haha.. Speechless... Memories... WTH. IS it happening again? Hope not. Some farking arse scratched my car.

if i ain't got you|4:35 PM|

Friday, May 14, 2004

Well... I tot u were supposed to look after ur followers??? I tot u know how to create miracles in ppl's lives? I've heard many wonderful stories.. miracles which u have created but then.. why do u have to let a DEVOTED follower suffer???? HUH?! DO U HEAR ME UP THERE??? HUH??? I've lost faith in U once and now by doing this... U are juz proving me right about how I think about U. If u wanna punish me.. go ahead lahz.. AIM AT ME!! AIM PROPERLY!!! WHY HER? HUHZ? Just end it OKIE.. She is innocent and harmless.. juz end this misery.

if i ain't got you|9:58 PM|

Black Eyed Peas are cool! Lolz.. yep.. they are coming to Singapore on the 25th May.. LIVE!!! Hahahz... I also dunnoe why I so happy.. also never go.. Lolz.. the trip to job hunt was cancelled coz Melissa was unable to go out. IT's okie Meli! Next time! I'll be waiting.. hehehezz.. Alright then.. hmm.. waiting for Darling to come online.. hope can meet him earlier then go and meet the rest.. We didn't go and have breakfast this morning.. Lolz.. Well.. coz both of us are too tired.. Lolz.. Hope the weather will be fine today.. it's has been HOT for the past few days.. Like that can get sick one leh.. dun wanna get sick for my holidays.. LOlz.. Those enjoying out there.. enjoy bahz! Those who will be working... Work bahz.. but dun work so hard le.. coz holidays are short.. have to enjoy!

if i ain't got you|11:56 AM|

.. why am I not sleeping? Lolz.. Well.. guess wad.. I've juz brought the girls home.. tIred.. Yawnz.. anyway.. juz a brief description about what had happen. I woke up at about 12 pm plus plus.. lolz.. then my sis and I went to Thomson Plaza.. wanted to borrow books there, but then the shop was closed down! Awww... then also ordered a bouquet of white roses for my mother.. will be delivered on her birthday.. Lolz.. Hope she likes it.. White = Purity. Then after that I was back home.. and about 4 plus.. I was flipping through the newspaper.. then I happen to saw an ad.. part time waitress at Meridian Hotel.. So.. as I was meeting Kate nearby at 6.30 pm later.. I shall go for a try.. Lolz.. Well.. initially wanted to park my car at YCk MRT.. but then fine $500.. scared sia.. so I drove all the way to PS lo.. Hehez.. I was able to make it last minute.. Hahaz.. interview went well bahz.. but dunnoe will get in anot.. will know by Monday.. but pay was damn pathetic--> $5.00. I was like -_-'. Anyway after the interview, I went to look for Kate.. and we went shopping for a birthday cake for Yan Rong and Lindy.. It was kinda early to celebrate their birthday.. coz Yan Rong will be going to UK for about 5 weeks.. then we were unable to celebrate her birthday and also.. she won't be there to celebrate Lindy's birthday too.. Hehez.. anyway the birthday was kind of a surprise for them.. lolzz.. hope u like it girls! oH yah.. also treat them dinner (dun worry.. u still have gifts form us! lol) Then after that, all except Jovin went to my house.. and rot basically.. Well.. played only a few rounds of mahjong.. sadly.. (Hey.. I was on a winning streak!) Then only until juz then go home lo..
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Hehehez.. after I will be meeting Darling for breakfast.. can't wait.. kinda miss him.. Then I guess I will be meeting Melissa for job hunts.. then meeting Benji, Ling Xuan and some of my guy friends to go for an interview.. dunnoe if Darling is coming along. Then after that.. the girls are coming to my house again.. Lolz..

Oh Yah.. today is Ernest's birthday.. wanna wish him a very Happy Birthday.. and yah.. Dunoe if U will be reading this.. but nevertheless.. U are already 21.. so good luck to ur future undertakings and take care!

Hehez.. also.. it's Darling and I 3rd month anniversary together~ Lolz.. Yays! Well.. I dun really used to appreciate monthly events.. but then.. now.. every single moment with my Darling.. even a second.. also have to treasure.. so actually.. everyday seems to be Valentine's Day to me.. Lolz.. =Muackz= I Love U Darling!

if i ain't got you|4:50 AM|

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Hey! I've changed the blogskin.. finally.. I wouldn't want to change at first.. but damn.. the bears were missing.. so no choice.. Couldn't really find any skins that I like.. so I chose a skin whihc displayes one of my favourite colour--> Orange. Lolz.. Yapz.. I am finally free!! Yep! exams are all over! Yays!

Hmm.. 12 of May, My Son's Birthday! Happy Birthday Son! Heehezz.. Well, straight after our last paper, a huge group of us went to watch a movie at PS--> Van Helzing (I dunnoe how to spell lahz..) There are.. Sean, Sim Lim, Wee Beng, Yao Cong, Seet Wei, Benjamin, Darling, Me, Gerladine, Yi Luan, Zhen Zhen, Melissa, Xin Hui, Xin Hui's BF, Emily, Doreen and Max.. Huge group arhz? Well, the movie was cool! Damn cool! Should catch it ppl! Worth watching.. then after that.. We went to KTV.. but I left halfway.. becoz I wasn't feeling too good.. had a very bad headache. Wanted to go for another round of movie with the girls.. but then.. so sorry.. my headache was really bad.. After I reached home.. I popped 2 pills and went to bed.. and I woke up about 9 plus I guess.. Tomorrow meeting the girls again! Yay! But before that.. might be going to Thomson PLaza with my sister.. hahaz.. nice... See Ya!

if i ain't got you|12:33 AM|

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

The more I look at my notes.. the more giddy I felt.. I don't know why.. I wasn't feeling too good this morning... the world seems to be spinning again.. haiz.. hope this is not due to stress.. arghz.. feel like vomitting too.. another 3 hours.. and it's freedom! Till then!

if i ain't got you|6:50 AM|

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

TATA YOUNG - I Believe In Love
Album : I Believe (2004)

I feel the heat around me
I feel the beat surrounds me
Could this be for real, I wonder
No need for hesitation
It's time for celebration
Will this be the night I've waited for

When angels fall in luv
Heaven knows, does it show, oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus:]
I believe, I believe in love
And like the stars above
They shine, let it shine over me
Set me free I believe in you
And that our love is true
Oh I believe, I believe

I see that people dancing
Boys and girls romancing
They want this to last forever

Cause underneath the moonlight
Everything is alright
We're reaching our hands up in the air

To where the souls alive
Heaven knows, that it shows oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus]

How could I doubt, what was meant to be
Everything I needed was in front of me
Your healing touch, will lift me up in the sky, so high

[Chorus]

if i ain't got you|11:46 PM|

Yay!!! Tomorrow embarks my freedom!! Yay again!! 3 Cheers!! Fireworks!!! Wadever.. But then.. come to think of it.. Hoidays might be boring too.. coz too many days to spare.. First... Yan Rong going UK for about 5 Weeks!! Sianz... then Darling... Going to work for one whole month.. sianz ½. Well..I guess I really need to find things for myself to do.. wahahaha.. Don't really want to go out so often too.. save money.. got alot of Birthday presents to buy.. If wanna go out.. also budget budget lahz.. Lolz.. I still remember last time my holidays.. every day also got activities one.. ahahahaz.. but now.. eh.. can't think much. Lolz.. go back to studying le..Ciaoz!!

Wad I am going to do is to change my blogskin too!!! The bears seems to pOoF* Lost...

if i ain't got you|5:31 PM|

Damn.. I woke up too early.. Well.. I did try to sleep.. I think I slept about 1 plus 2? And I slept and woke.. slept and woke quite a number of times.. and before I really wanna settle down to sleep.. it's already 5.53 am. I wanted to wake up at 6.. so I adjusted my alarm to 6.40 am coz I need to sleep! But then unfortunately.. I couldn't sleep coz my mosquitoe bites were bugging me great time. Haiz.. but I am glad that it's morning and it's about 2 hours to my paper.. I hope I still have the energy to revise for my next paper later.. X|

Don't make me screw up this time.. oh plss... I can't take it anymore...

if i ain't got you|6:37 AM|

Arghz.. can't sleep... dunoe why.. I've realised that I've been blogging quite often.. although I have nothing much to tok.. Hahaz.. maybe this is my relieve stress buster.. hahaz.. juz wanna type something although it might be rubbish.. Muahahaha.. I guess I am pretty screwed up.. my sleep is pretty irregular too.. I should take this time to study right? Yes.. Yes.. but THEN.. it's sick to look at notes the whole day.. Yea.. and fed up too.. I can't wait exams to be OVER!!! Well.. I am crazy.. I am sick.. head heavy.. throat dry.. I juz can't wait to be sick.. yea.. that's the only excuse that I will be off my notes and I won't feel bad for once.. Hahahaz.. Well.. I am juz kidding. DuH!

Life is about my dear family.
Life is about my dear bitches.
Life is about my dear friends in school.
Life is about my dear son(Sean).
Life is about my dear Darling.
Life is about my studies.
Life is about my fav radio station 98.7.
Life is about my dear RX300.
Life is about my idol, Keanu Reeves?
Life is about my dear sleep.
Life is about my dear food.
Life is about my dear blog.

(not in any particualr order or ranking.. Muahahahazzz...Lolz..)

Woh.. I have lotsa things in my life.. so I must keep going strong!!!

if i ain't got you|12:15 AM|

Monday, May 10, 2004

Well.. stress is getting into me.. and this is bad.. I can't even have a good nap.. I don't know why am I feeling this way and it's already the 3rd paper? Is it too late to "feel" something for this semester examinations? I don'r know.. I find myself stoning and staring into space quite a few times today.. and I felt burned out.. Juz now Darling called me.. and I don't know why.. I juz have no energy to talk.. and he tot I was sick.. Maybe I am not physically sick.. but mentally bahz.. Lolz.. not crazy lahz.. but mentally tired.. Also, partially, I have kinda high expectations from this paper.. hahahz.. yep.. and I felt that I did not really study for it.. Those business track students have like 2 weeks to study for this paper.. and me? Hahaz.. barely 3 pathetic days I guess.. And still there's another paper on Wenesday.. and I think I will be taking only a total of 2 days? WTH... I dunoe lahz.. it's like there are sufficient time to study.. but juz that.. I feel it's not enough.. Am I stressing myself up again? Haiz.. maybe.. maybe I think too much.. hope I can really enjoy my upcoming holidays..

I still hate myself for behaving this way.

if i ain't got you|6:36 PM|

Well.. I think blogger have already changed a new interface.. looks nicer now.. hahazz.. I was reading a few blogs late last night and I've realised that most of them have finished their exams.. envy envy.. haiz.. I still have about.. er 3 days? It seems so slow yea.. Don't wad to do on that day also.. and it happens to my my dear Son's (Sean) Birthday.. lol... I think the end of exams might be a very nice gift for him.. lolz.. But still I am buying him smthing and I've already tot of it.. hahahaz... Hope he will like it.. Anyway.. my mother aksed me not to stay at home.. ask me to go and work.. damn sianz.. who would want to hire someone (without experience) somemore and work for only 2 months? My parents also won't allow me to work after the holidays.. so wads the point.. I guess I will only waste the company resources.. Somemore the working hours also restricted.. So hard to find somemore.. sianz.. Lolz... Alright le.. I go and study le.. Tomorrow last 2nd paper..

if i ain't got you|11:55 AM|

Saturday, May 08, 2004

I wonder how is it like to be picked up from school or work everyday.. Well... frankly speaking.. I never really have that kind of privilege.. Hmm.. Well.. let's start with Ernest. He used to be in the same school as me.. and waiting for me to go home is not a problem.. However... My school is in Yishun and he stays in Yishun.. so it would be somehow not logical for him to send me home back to Yio Chu Kang? So it's more of like I send him home instead he sends me home.. Then after he graduates.. He also never really pick me up from school gate.. and also never take me home or smthing.. even we are meeting after my school hours.. I will be meeting him either his house or North Point. Now in NYP.. when I was still with Ernest.. he never really come to school and pick me up too.. and at most he will wait for me in YCK mrt and this only happens if we happen to go out after my school. SOmetimes I still have to go to his house then we go out.. it's more of like I am picking him from his house? Duh! Then now Darling.. by the time Darling and I got together... I already have a car.. and no point like going to school without a car then ask Darling to take me home? Furthermore.. he and I same school.. same class.. same track.. ahhaz.. school hours totally the same.. so there's no like he wait for me and I wait for him.. (But then he still make an effort to take me home on V Day.. hehehez.. although it's so late.)

Also can't balme the guys.. blame me for staying so inside the Lentor area.. transport also not convenient.. then if I ask my Darling to take me home.. I also paiseh arhz.. haiz.. futhermore I have a car now.. no point asking my Darling to take me home.. hahahaz.. Maybe next time he drive me home arhz.. *HinTz.. hehezz.. so gurls arhz.. if a guy is willing to take you home.. that's good u know.. U have no idea how fortunate u are..

Haiz.. look at my study table.. so messy.. see also sianz..

if i ain't got you|1:21 PM|

Friday, May 07, 2004

I kind of feeling disappointed in myself.. I juz let 7 marks question fly away which I actually know how to attempt them.. I sux.. I guess I gong to take some time to get over it then.. Juz feeling so down.. until I juz wanna sleep away my time and dun wanna start revising on my next paper.. It's already 5 plus in the evening and I have not started abit.. hahhaa.. it's so unlike me.. Maybe my heart has already given up.. Hahaz.. study also like that.. in the end go examination hall also mental block..

Well, my next paper is on Tuesday and I did not even start studying yet.. it's so... -_-'. Maybe later bahz.. if I am feeling better... haiz...

*cross fingers.. For Mobile.. give me a "B" please.. and I will so darn happy.

if i ain't got you|5:11 PM|

4 of my family members juz woke up and asked me the same thing:" Why are u up so early today?" They are pretty shocked I guess coz for the past whole week, including my study week, I did not wake up early before.. and today seems to be the "surprise of the century".. Hahahz.. Well, I have a paper later on at 8.30a.m and here I am trying to memorize some of my stuff.. Kinda scared arhz.. For this module.. I do hope to get a "B".. A "B" then I happy enough le..

LAst night.. Yan Rong and I bitched over the phone about 2 hours.. Damn.. it felt good.. First, becoz never tok to Yan Rong for quite some time (kinda miss her and her crapping.. wahahha). Second, I don't know when was the last time I held on my house phone and talked for at least 5 minutes? Third, helps me to kill time and lastly.. relax lahz.. Hahahaz..These few days having a very bad weather.. bad bad... Raining.. then suddenly so hot.. Always thinking if I should wear long sleeve to examination hall..

Last night.. thoughts were running thru my head and I really broke down.. due to many many factors.. and this matter might relate to some other things.. for example my relationship with Darling.. Luckily Dwarling was there to assure me that everything will be alright.. Well, I really do hope that everything will be alright.. And I do hope that what I predcited will be wrong..

raining outside I guess.. ahhaz.. and I am sitting her to enjoy my favourite hot chocolate.. Hehez... wish me luck!

if i ain't got you|7:08 AM|

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Alright Darling.. this is another song for u.. wanna dedicate to u on our 3rd month anniversary.. but I juz cuouldn't wait! Lolz... Love ya.

YOU ARE THE SUNSHINE OF MY LIFE (Stevie Wonder)

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

I Feel Like This Is The Beginning
Though I've Loved You For A Million Years
And If I Thought Our Love Was Ending
I'd Find Myself Drowning In My Own Tears

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

You Must Have Known That I Was Lonely
Because You Came To My Rescue
And I Know That This Must Be Heaven
How Could So Much Love Be Inside Of You

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

if i ain't got you|10:15 PM|

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Well... having headache again... is like 2 days in a row.. it seldom happens.. I think it's the memorizing work.. especially the OS exam paper.. I think it juz tire my brain out.. LOlzz... My 'CPU' lotsa page faults arhz.. low utilization.. so must decrease the degree of multi-programming.. Well.. those who are taking OS.. know exactly what I am toking about.. LOlz.. I guess I am really OS nuts... LOlz..The next few papers.. dunnoe how to die.. hahaz.

if i ain't got you|11:51 PM|

Monday, May 03, 2004

My mind is very exhausted.. seems like it juz came back from a war.. so heavy.. and it hurts alittle.. Well.. one paper down, 3 more to go.. Well.. just when I was looking forward to the holidays.. Darling told me that he has to work one whole month.. everyday.. from 12-9. Yep.. well.. I do admit at first that it seems like the world has crushed on me.. coz I tot both of us could really spend some REAL quality time together. But then.. maybe I could find some things to do.. which I've already planned some.. Yep.. Darling was nice enough to suggest and allocate some work to Sim Lim.. Well Darling.. thanks.. I really appreciate it.. but if U really want to work.. go ahead yea? Maybe alternate days I will go and join him for dinner or smthing.. or maybe after his work.. he could drop by my house.. Yep.. Guess I am going to miss him lots..

Darling has a flu today.... must take care wor.. we still have about a week or so to complete our exams.. so stay healthy! Well, I guess I'm going to have my dinner now.. and maybe have some GunBound session later.. CYA!

if i ain't got you|8:29 PM|

I juz can't believe it... I juz miss him too much.. can't sleep.. dunnoe why.. played gunbound.. it's worst.. doing the backshot and stuff made me miss him more... I've only seen him about.. er... 4 hours ago? And guess wad.. so surprising.. later will be my first paper. Haha.. Crystal Tan.. before exams still play game.. not like her right? I have no feelings at all.. anyway.. I've tried my best you see.. maybe.. maybe if I can get to some sleep soon.. I will see him earlier.. hahaha..

Miss you lots lots Darling... Wish Everyone luck in Exams!!

if i ain't got you|2:15 AM|

Saturday, May 01, 2004

She seems to be determined this time.. Well, can't blame her. Don't want to see her having sleepless nights and growing thinner and thinner.. Are the women in my family fated to have this cruel treatment? When I say every.. I really mean every.. I hope when I grow up, I won't suffer.. at least I am happy now.

if i ain't got you|10:10 PM|